hmmm mulai dari mana ya..
hahahah it took me a minute to think.. of wat to write after "mulai dari mana ya.." coz i really dont kno wer to start.. or wat to write..
after free-ed from my final project.. finished submitting my hard covers.. Da hard work, tyms spent, da stresses n all.. it was overwhelming.. gilllaaaa ampir g putus asa.. n got me thinkin "sud i add another smester?".. i got up n decide.. "no way.. this is my fight.. im halfway through.. n im gona finish it.. till my last drop of (blood? hahaha no) sweat!" till this day.. i havent had da tym to free myself.. i mean really free myself as in i dun have anythin to do but slipin n eatin..

friday after i submitted my hard covers on da 3rd, went castin at da day n to bian's surprise party on da 4th nite(happy bday man!), went to church on da 5th, fitting on da 6th (i got da job yay!), pick up my baby boy at da 7th (yea u kno ive been waiting for this day to come).. he was here for 6days till da 13th..

for those 6days we spent.. well 5 days.. minus 1 day i had to shoot for a clip n cudnt c him for da whole day.. we went to bandung for a day.. (o mannnnn it was beautifullllll!!!!) n then went to his couz's wed.. i met his aunties(it was a great experience, gettin to kno his fam n stuff.. eatin together, aw love em), stayed da nite over @ my house at ciputat (YEAAAAHH!! hahaha he slept in my room n i slept in mom's.. how cute is dat, wakin him up in my room, had a breakfast n talk w my fam.. dats just sumtin outta my xpectation.. it was AMAZING!!! my parents love him, hahahah rick loves my mom hahahah), went to eat n meet up w his friends, didnt have da chance to meet up w lots of mine.. puti cudnt make it.. kk, adjie n stuff.. but der'll be next tym.. but he got to meet virny n mario.. we ate couple of tyms.. n it was real fun.. like im so glad dey feel eachother hahaha cocok bgt gt my baby n mario.. hahaha laughin funny stories n went to da movies -it was lord of war-.. it all happened soooo fast.. meetin his fam, meetin my fam, da love flew like rockets!!!

its been an incredible week for me.. like i was wonderin how it all wud be, i was real nervous, real scared, my hopes were high.. n i was so scared dat everything mite not go da way i wanted it.. turned out its way then i expected it to be.. n its perfect.. at least PERFECT FOR ME!!!

he's as perfect as how i expected from a guy.. even better.. da love, da attention, da touches, da hugs, da kisses, da way he holds my hands, da way he talks to me, da way he treats me, da way he acts, da sweetness, da appreciations, da way he appreciates me, da way he loves me, da way he sees life, da way he talks bout da future, da way he talks bout things, da way we understands eachother without havin to have da same opinion.., n yes i will tell u again.. he's smart, he's good lookin, unbelievably sweet, amazingly funny, great taste in stuff(music, fashion, u name it), he has attitude, sopan, family oriented, cares bout alotta things.. aaaaaaaaah mannnnn everything.. its just not enuff w words.. i can just tell u to read my mind n read how i feel bout all da things dat happened to my life recently.. its been a blast!!! and of course its been stressful too (thesis thing).. i cudnt expect more.. its perfect.. he's perfect.. n re-think everything dat happend to me lately.. sumtyms i cant believe its even happening to me.. life has been soooo goood to me.. it all comes from God.. God has been soooooooooo goood to me.. i cant thank YOU enuff for everything that has happened in my life.. da good n da bad

i remember.. myself months ago.. i was still in a bad shape.. brokenhearted badly, lonely, didnt believe in love like i gave up on love.. i thought i wud never found anyone in my life again, i just wanted to stay single.. ive been thru a lotta shit.. wen i thought 2nd hit wasnt as hurtful as da 1st.. damn it its not.. its as painful as da 1st.. becoz da love was greater then da 1st.. i think if u remember da sayin "good things comes at da tym u least expected" its ryt.. he came at da tym i didnt xpect him to come.. da tym i didnt look for anyone.. n BAM!! God put him on my path.. not just put sum1 on my path.. but he's da one ive been lookin for in my life.. da same religion, man he's even batak!!, has da love of hiphop, sweet, smart, good lookin(didnt xpect this one haaaa!! baby kamu ganteng hahahahahahahhahahah), finished skul, workin, a good dancer (i havent prove this one yet tho, im sure u r sayank!), wat else cud u ask for in a guy?

i think maybe this is as shocking to u guyz as it is to me..
but u kno wat?I LOVE HIM already.. haaaaaa!! yea i do.. i really dooooo.. noooo im really sure.. i love him a lot already.. how great is dat..
wen i knew i do at 1st.. i looked at him, i kno i was feeling it but i was afraid to speak it off.. becoz i kno i still have dat trauma of love inside of me.. i was scareeeeeddd.. really scared.. till he showed me.. by loving me without bein asked.. by bein a bestfriend wen u need him, givin me da understanding to me that its ok to take my tym on love, attention, sweetness n all that shit..
n babe.. i love you.. alot.. u make me sooooo happy.. ive never been this happy for a while.. u rock my world.. u fly me high grandpa.. i cant help but thank u for all da love u gave.. n for bein such a silly ass hahahahaa i love ur jokes.. n i love us jokin around.. i miss ur farts hahahaha.. thank you for understanding me.. thank you for always holding my hands n kiss me.. thanks for da warm hugs.. thanks for da small kisses.. big kisses.. big hugs.. ah babe.. thanks for everything!!!
we gonna rock da world babe.. for sure.. hahahaha =DDDD =) ;) =P

sayankkkkk.. i miss my papieeeeeeeee... muahhhhh!!!