Monday, July 30, 2007
My boyfriend is a model?
Well actually not.. but he can be, right?
He was in this Thaicatwalk show, for his friend Nut who has a store in Bangkok Thailand.
Looking from the picture.. Rick has lots of confident and definitely look good hahahah.. proud of you beb.
My Mom and Dad
U know every girl, woman.. whatever happens, at the end they would break down and cry to their moms, even guys i think.. except for the crying part. mom always knows best. whether ur married or not married, mom will always there for you. only her and God..
Ive been calling my mom often lately, I just need someone to talk right now.. and I know my mom will be there for me.. after a bad mood and a bad conversation.. i called her.. and there my mom answered my call with a happy voice.. "Hallooooooo naaaakk" hehehe and it eased my heart a bit, for the past few times i called.. my dad is there listening to my conversation with mom on the other fone.. he only talk when he needs to. My dad.. he's not much of a word person.. but by listening to me and mom talking.. i know he miss me but he just doesnt know how to say it or act upon it. Im happy to know that he's there listening to me and
sometimes talk when i asked him questions.
My mom and Dad is a completely different person, my mom talks a lot, my dad barely talks.. I love when im telling my stories and mom would give me a good advice like "sabar ajalah ya nak, ibu pendeta udah doain koq and
bla bla bla" and my dad will give a bad advice like "kalo dia marah2, gopalhon (pukul) aja biar tau rasa dia, kalo bapak, bapak pukul itu" hahahah but it would make me laugh.. and on the other side mom would say.. "eh jangan,
jangan ikutin bapak kau itu" so funny..
after talking to them, I feel better.. but ONLY, ONLY if they dont talk about money. if they do, my rage would definitely raise and conversation would be short hehehe. Lately its been good.. and i like it, cuz i know mom would always be there to comfort me.. and I love at the end of the conversation she would say.. "Mama sayang kau ya nak, mama cium ya.. Muah" I love you too mom.. muah.
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Singing it once again.. its a bit different, cuz i dun agree in some of the lyrics.
I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
He'll get my support
He will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
He'll hear me out
And wont easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact he'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
He will understand me
I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
and when Im asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
God is my Shepherd
I couldnt sleep when i needed to, before myAuckland flight on the 26th, Its been hard to sleep for me lately.. its the twice time.. so i decided to pray and read the bible.. I havent been going to church for the past few months.. I have renungan harian (daily cogitation) for the month of march, but what the heck i'll just use that for this month.. so i read the verse for 26th of march.. it says to read Psalm 90
.. and on my daily cogitation book, it basically says dont look on a situation on just the negative perspective, like eeyore (winnie the pooh's buddy).. it says to do what Moses did.. Moses wrote it with a positive perspective eventho he's been in a rough patch.. and in the bottom it says :
When trials assail and my moods descend,
When pain and sorrow seem never to end,
I yield to You, Lord so that I may see
The peace and the joy You've promised me. - Fitzhugh
and I was thinking.. gadamn.. how come its just such a coincidence?? exactly what im feeling and what i need for. and then when i came back from auckland, my other flatmate broke down to me.. so i told her, i found this verse and told her to read it.. and she read it, after i woke up she msgd me and asked me to go to church together.. so we went :) she's catholic.. but its all the same anyways.. I called my mom last nite.. and told her what happened.. and she said.. if ur in trouble and u read the bible, Tuhan akan tunjukan ayat yang menghibur untukmu dan membantumu dalam kesusahan. I think its right.. Im gona try to be more positive, but sigh its so hard.. but i'll try.. God is my shepherd.. at the end of this, happines awaits me.. amin.