I cant sleep tonite.. another one for that matter.. for the past weeks ive been havin trouble of sleeping. i cant sleep before 3am!! closed my eyes, prayed, but im still here.. AWAKE!!! *sigh*

Im registering to an emirates assessment day in spore on 21-23 may. unlike open day which is free for everyone to come, assessment day means invitational only. Ive registered my online application, within 7 days they'll let me know if they give me a chance to be interviewed. so wish me luck!! Im not Planning to fail. Because the money i use to go to this interview isnt easy to get and I might not be able to go for a 2nd time. So u get the point!

Rick is helping me with the interview, we do this interview rehearsal, he asks questions of what they might questioned, he gives me tips on how to answer, how to act, how to dress, what i need to do and stuff (THANK YOU!!!) and yuri too, yuri told me what kind of bag i should bring (thanks gurl). So im reading about dubai and the company itself. So if they ask me questions (incase) about dubai, i can answer just fine.

and as always eventhough you are not sure if you can get in. you dream a little dream already. You dream of getting the job and dreaming of what you can do after you get the job. well me, im always a dreamer. just now i dream if i get the job, i imagine myself and my friends at the airport and then imagining how my room would look like. im dreaming of havin bali ornaments in my room, the cute ones, the one i can hang surrounding my bed, and pictures of my friends and family all over the wall. and a BIG ASS picture of me and my bf that i personally made. maybe dress the room a lil. putting gips and make a patter to the wall.. that is if i can do that to my room. a stereofoam filled with notes and things to do and maybe bills?. dreaming of walking to my bf's room and hang out w yuri, spending time with my bf watching dvd, going to the beach, going to the gym, rocking together, going places and yea with yuri too =) or maybe another guy who would be my bestfriend there, hmm who could it be. going to enter a dance lesson. thinking of buying a nice stereo for my room, but i think its going to be too loud. ah maybe just a TV with international channels. lots of DVDs ive bought everytime i go to indo nicely piled in its rack.

but the best thing are dreaming of having ENOUGH money, being able to buy things for my family.. dreaming of buying 1-2 clothes and shoes every once in a while, it doesnt have to be luxurious, but i know they'll love it, im dreaming of seeing their happy face and that moment WILL be priceless, i want my brothers to look cool and stuff. i wanna take my parents and my brothers somewhere out of town or maybe out of country and just make them happy, take them see places, eat at a nice place, spoiled them for once, having good old time with my family. not everytime, just once in a while if i have extra money. Then Buy nice things to put in mom's house, renovating the house so it'll look nice and all and maybe a bit of jewelery for mom, because thats mom's favorite item of all. Buy clothes for pops and yea beer too once in a while yea pop, i know that is all u like. Giving that to my family is my dream. and of course being able to spend time with my bf and grow together, making decisions together. travel together. and i cant wait.

and buy things for myself, i know im not a spender of buying things for myself, once in a while shop for clothes that i dreamt of having, not the branded stuff. but all cool and cool. hehehehe.. dreaming of seeing places and see what it is all about. travel and travel, learn cultures, see dances or maybe learn it. i just want to open my eyes. and the rest of it i'll save up for my future.. our future :)

and im still not sleepy. o how am i to sleep?????????