my plan was to go to dubai to try and get an interview there, but then i checked emirates website i saw singapore is having an open day in a week which was 8th of july, so i told my mom and mom insisted me to go there and try it out, i was hesitant at first but you know what, i thought i'll just try it out so i would at least can learn off it and be better in dubai IF i failed in singapore. actually i felt burden by dubai's interview, the reason is rick's friend mba tri has put a recommendation for me which is greatttt but it also makes me feel "i cant screw this up, someone's name is on it".

I know eventhough i think if i failed in spore i can learn from it, but i do know eventhough so I would definitely be really dissapointed (i remember myself crying over me not getting to gadis sampul when i made it to semifinal hahaha i cried for days). so there i was in singapore a day before the interview with mom, couldnt sleep because i was nervous and so excited. got up at 5am, got there at 8:30, as always im early, there was only about 15 of us, then of course as the time passes more people coming. so they group us into ten each, i was in the 2nd group. each group come in and do a group discussion. so there we were, they told us to give 3 questions to ask to the passangers if we would like to sell them parfume. so i waited after the other girls finished giving their opinion and gave mine, then i shut up and they asked us if we have come to a conclusion and what the 3 questions are?this girl mentioned the 1st question, i mentioned the 2nd and the other girl mentioned the 3rd. so i only talked 2 times. then they told us to wait outside while they were deciding not long after that they gathered us and she said "the name i mention stays and the rest of you thank you for you time and good luck next time" then she mentioned a name while looking at the CVs and gave her a paper, then she put aside someone's CV and I was thinking "O MY is that MY CV???O thank god its not" then she said "Fellma" and i raised my hand, she gave me the paper and said "congrats, and thats it, thank you everyone". I was like WHATTTT???? just 2 out of 10 thats crazy!!! I was happy as hell, I almost cried haha i know its only the 1st round but still man i was sooo happy. they told us to go back there at 5 for a briefing. when i got there, it was packed, i thought they havent finish the discussion turned out they were all there for the briefing, i counted them there are 120 people. They told us that the 2nd interview will be on the 20th, which means i have to go back home asap and get back in spore before the 20th. i thought theyre going to have the 2nd and so on not long after the 8th. which means more money to spend!!! sialllll..

I organised my reference letters from studio tiga production house and agrakom PR, cause they told us to bring 2 reference letters of two different company of where ive worked incase i got in, I got them. I got to spore at the 18th by myself, nervous as hell, high hopes, i put so much pressure to myself. the fact if i fail this interview wouldnt dissapoint me that much but what dissapoints me the most is how i would dissapoint my mom, my family who have supported me, who put so much hope on me and put so much money for me to go to singapore, my family isnt rich so yea its a lot of money for us that me and my mom put in, i couldnt immagine saying to mom that i dont get in, i dont want to dissapoint her eventhough i have already told her that this is just a trial before the dubai one, i thought if i get in i wouldnt have to go to dubai so rick wouldnt spend so much money and ill be able to have the job Ive always wanted and be able to help my family, each one of them. I was so pressured with that, i couldnt sleep two nites before the day, i couldnt help but thinking, I cried myself that i would hate to dissapoint my mom, but what if eventhough Ive already studied all that i needed to study and ive already prepared months before and Ive put so much effort in it but i still fail?. Rick called which helped me feel better, he said exactly what i actually already know. Just do your best tom, you've prepared yourself for this, i know you've put so much money and effort to this and if you dont get in than its not meant to be, God has plans for you, dont worry just try again, try till you get in, you shouldnt put so much pressure on yourself like that. (something like that)

Anyways I only had 2 hours of sleep, I got there really early, 7:45. the interview is at 8:30, I was the first 3 people who got there. they showed us videos of emirates and dubai, i was like WOWWWWWW i cant wait to work there, and mba Tri was on the video as well so i reckon she has a very good reputation as ricky have told me. on to the 2nd interview, they divided the 120 into 60 person a day and they divided us into 3 groups. so 20 a group, i was on the 1st group. they told us to ask the person to your right about what she loves the most and her most embarassing moment and tell it infront of other girls according to our number, my # was 10, so i was the 10th person. everyone was so nervous, you can tell over their voice vibration or either they repeat the sentences and you cant tell the story back as supposed and of course your body gesture. as for me i did that mistake, i repeat my words and i couldnt even tell them the story correctly, HAHAHHAAH its not even funny actually hehehhe. afterwards i was like "what the f* i have an ok well not bad MC or presenting skill, why the hell didnt i use it, stupid!! where did it go" i felt like shit, almost all of us did the same mistake. what did i say exacly? "Hi my name is fellma, this is farrah, she's 24 years old, she loves watching movies and her favourite movie is the austronauts wife, she loves romantic comedy and her favourite actress is charlize theron. her most embarassing moment is when she was in highschool, she took a bus and fell off the stairs while getting to a bus, she wasnt even wearing heels werent you farrah?hahaha (WHICH HIGHSCHOOL WEARS HIGHHEELS YOU DUMB ASS, so you know that i WAS nervous) and yeah she loves watching romantic comedy movie ( i was trying to remember what i was going to say next but i forgot so i accidentally repeated the words) and oooo yeaaa she loves playing pc games, thats pretty rare for a girl but that makes two of us haha, thank you (and i sit).

Then they told us to decide the 3 questions that we would ask the recruitment officer to decide what parfume whe should buy her, so we discussed, all of them were talking and gave their opinion, then i had my chance, a girl said that the question should be "what parfume do you have right now (to determine what parfume we should get her)" then i said "what if she has different types of parfumes" (this is my 2nd time talking) and my 3rd time was so which questions should we ask her?because there are more than 3. then afterward they asked us have we decided and we said yes and this girl mentioned the 1st question, i mentioned the 2nd and this other girl mentioned the 3rd and she asked so what parfume will you get me, and some of the girls answered. then they told us to wait outside while theyre deciding and they told us to get in and they already put small notes with our numbers and to read it outside. then i read mine "unfortunately you didnt pass bla bla bla thank you for your time bla bla" then i asked the others if they got in n most of them didnt. they only took 6 out of 40???? thats so cruel!! honestly some of the people that got in to the 3rd interview wasnt well dressed because they told us to wear a suit and you dont have it wear a shirt and a skirt, and you have to tie your hair a bun, if you cant do it then pull your hair up. and some of them put their hair straight, werent well groomed, didnt put make up on. i was a bit confused of why they got in, 2 of em deserves to be on that list. but the rest? out of all the applicants who were well groomed, make a lot of effort to their appearance, their make up, and maybe borrow or buy their suit, learnt how to french twist their hair or tie it a bun, ok maybe not me but other girls who put as much effort.


I was wondering all day why i didnt get in, ok it wasnt great, but most of them werent too, so here are what was in my mine : maybe i talked too much??maybe 4 times is too much, maybe i should just talk 2 times like what i did on the 1st interview and just listened, maybe i didnt smile that much, maybe i look really ugly with this red lipstick (i hate red lipstick, i do), maybe i shouldve looked pretty (hahaha), maybe because i sat back facing them and they couldnt see my gesture how i talk and stuff, maybe because i repeated the words, maybe because i made a bad introduction of farrah, maybe i wasnt praying enough. as you know a lot of that came into my mind, but i do realise it was a bad interview, i screwed it up, i wasnt good enough to get in, i do learn from it, i think i can do better next time (sort of haha), i put so much effort into it and so much money too. damn it im broke now hahahah ok its not funny. what relieved me is that my mom was supportive eventhough i didnt get in, she said i shouldnt think of it and asked if i was ok and that I should try again and dont let this experience put me down when i was thinking of how she is feeling all the time. I LOVE HER FOR THAT, i cant ask for a better mom, she's the greatest.

I was down for the whole week, I stayed in my room and crying the s*it out of me the nite of the interview haha, Got to express it somehow and thats my way of how, Crying haahah letting it out.

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